Long time no see

Mental Health

Hi everyone,

I haven’t written in a while because I felt as though I had nothing to say. I felt like a skipping record, stuck on repeat: Hormones impact mental health. Hormones impact mental health. Hormones impact mental health. Arrrggghhhh!!!!!

I felt like my message was falling on deaf ears.

So I stopped talking.
But not tonight.

Tonight, I want to talk to you.

I know what it feels like to be bipolar. I know nervous breakdowns, panic attacks, ghosts and demons. I know what it feels like to have seizures. To faint in hallways. To use vodka as a sleeping aid. I know how it feels to be broken.

I don’t want to go back. And if you are sick, I want you to be able to come out of your sickness as I have.

Thankfully, I’ve been able to manage my disease successfully for many years. It’s been a blur, but it’s been fun. Sometimes I can’t believe all that has happened. It’s surreal.

I go to work every day. I blend in. And dare I say it… I feel normal.

I didn’t have those things when I was sick and it wasn’t because I didn’t want them. It was because they weren’t available to me. I was too busy fighting off ghosts and demons and praying in closets to feel normal.

But I’m so thankful for today. I’m thankful that we know hormones impact our mental health and I’m thankful there are good doctors out there who can help us to correct the imbalances that so many of us have been born with.

And that’s all I have to say. No skipping records here.

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